At uni I plucked up the courage to get help and talking about what was going on got me back on track.
Initially I was embarrassed about seeing a therapist. I kept it a secret from my mum and my mates, telling people I was going to the gym. Although when people noticed no discernible difference in my body shape I think they became suspicious.
I realise now that it was nothing to be ashamed of. It’s one of the reasons why I want to become CALM Patron, because talking really does make a difference.
It’s absurd that 18 people in the UK die because of suicide every day. I want to show that no matter how bad things feel, there’s always a reason to stay.
Anyone can hit rock bottom and 1 in 5 of us will have suicidal thoughts, but it’s vital we all understand that those feelings won’t last forever.
I’m not saying everything’s sunshine and rainbows now - I still get low points where externally it looks like everything is great, but you can’t predict when those moments are going to hit you.
That’s why I’m picking up the baton as CALM Patron. I'll be helping to make sure more people know about CALM’s life-saving services, as well as raising as much money as I can to take the charity to new heights.
Together we can show anyone struggling that there’s always support out there.
My hope is that by normalising chatting about our mental health, it becomes as much of a staple as getting a prostate exam.
PS. And if you want to chip in and help me with that £1 million target head to their Donate page - you’d be doing me a big favour.