Remember there is no right or ‘proper’ way to grieve, and everyone’s got different ways of dealing with their feelings. There may be guilt and remorse, shock and anger, denial, disbelief and a burning need to understand why this has happened.
Sometimes people get angry, with a specific person, with the world in general, or with the person who’s died. People can feel anxious about how they’re going to cope, have problems sleeping, find that they lose their appetite, feel tired all the time, or feel really down and lonely. While these are normal things to feel when someone dies, it can feel very hard to simply get through each day.
Coming to terms with someone dying doesn’t mean we forget that person, or that they stop being important to us. It’s alright to be upset. It’s normal, and there’s no shame in showing your emotions. There’s no time limit on grief, so don’t rush yourself or let others rush you. In fact, many people bereaved by suicide often describe it as a longterm rollercoaster where different emotions surface at different times. It’s perfectly normal to feel ready for normal life to resume on one day and overwhelmed on another.