1 Month In…
Will Harvey had never set foot in a boxing ring before, but in June of this year he will be facing a real opponent in a real fight. We follow his progress from his nervous first swing, to becoming King of the Ring.
I have now learnt to jab, cross, hook, uppercut, slip, roll, shadow box and take punches to the face! Amazing what you can learn in a month when you enjoy it.
One month into my boxing training and i have started to head spar. Apparently, I move pretty well for someone who has never boxed before and have a good jab. That doesn’t stop you shitting yourself when someone throws a fist at your face, but once a few land and throw you about, you know that getting into the ring means you are going to get hit, so accept it. It doesn’t hurt too much – it’s just a bit of a shock and counter intuitive to keep walking through the punches. Especially when the guy in front of you is too quick to see. And then try breathing with the gum shield in… attractive ISN’T the word.
If I am completely honest, it isn’t the getting punched that worries me. I’m more scared by the thought of losing or looking stupid. This is the biggest issue – the mental battle with the desire to win. Over thinking things. Quite similar to the day to day worries I have about wanting to be the best and feeling like I have to be successful, to the point that it infuriates me, ending up clouding my rational thoughts. Turning these thought processes into positivity is the important thing. As my trainer says, turn the thoughts into actions by training harder and smarter, and tell yourself you can, and will, win.
It is getting a bit obsessive to say the least; boxing in the mirror, in the reflection of the windows, and throwing jabs at inappropriate moments – an obsession which (I hope) is the best way to become good enough. The negative thoughts are creeping in, though. They pop up at random times and raise the question as to whether I’ll be ready in time for the fight in June, or to whether I am doing this for the right reasons. That’s the hardest thing to overcome and the fact that a few little injuries are hampering things. My wrist is sore and my shoulder has been giving me trouble. I debate how much is in my head and how much is genuine pain – I want to be careful not to injure myself but also don’t want to miss out on valuable training time… I ask myself whether I am doing enough and whether I can afford to rest. I think you can probably tell, from all this over thinking, what brought me to CALM in the first place.
I realised that my first blog didn’t explain much by way of why I was training to fight, so to put it simply, I have suffered with depression. It got pretty bad at times, to the point where I’ve damaged relationships with friends, spent days lying in bed where the duvet feels like a ton weight pressing down on my chest and just generally pushing people away. I don’t like people to think I can’t cope and never want people to feel sorry for me, which means I never really used to speak about stuff. It was all hidden behind the “cheeky” routine, or my efforts to succeed in my job. At the worst time, I would simply get angry instead – something I’m sure my mates will vouch for!
Luckily someone in my family opened up about their feelings and I felt comfortable talking to them and they pointed me to the CALM website. I wanted to do the same for other people experiencing similar things, and hopefully raise more awareness of depression.
When explaining what I’m doing, people are genuinely interested, and it has lead people to view this blog and to look at the rest of the site. It has also opened people up and made them feel comfortable talking about feeling down and why. They have also told me how it felt like such a relief to have got that off their shoulders. These are people who are respected for the most macho of achievements including fighters, musicians, Dads and big money earners. It’s an eye opener and helps you to feel less isolated.
All in all, I am getting fitter, faster, more coordinated and, if nothing else, it is a nice way to relieve a stressful day. Plus the feeling of achievement is great too. It has been good so far but the next challenge seems even harder: eating healthily (YAWN!). Lean meat, salad, fruit and lots of water beckon…
I have also been thinking about how this can actually get people to CALM, so I’m spreading the word on Facebook. I am sure people will ask what the hell it is all about, and some people may judge me, but if this blog helps one person through tough times, it has done its job. Perhaps not in the most subtle way, but if training to fight is teaching me anything, it is that everyone worries about these things, but we don’t all know where to turn…
Fight day is approaching. One month in. I’ll keep you posted!